The motivations that drive my practise.

In thinking about how to move forward with this investigative process, I thought it time to think about whats driving this project, my motivations, what makes me want to dig deeper and what it is that I am trying to find, or perhaps understand?

Some initial ideas that have come to mind....

Defining my family through the photographic image- What is the benefit of definition? Growing up with my grandparents adds a slightly different narrative than to a dare I say it ‘conventional’ family dynamic. Whilst thinking about the reason for investigating my family, I wanted to also think about when my interest in this subject started. It was Jo Spence and Anette Khun that started out my interest in this notion of “Family” within photography.

Family - It changes and develops over time. The images produced as well as the methods of image making also change with them. In my case, as I was entering into my photographic journey aged just 15 years old, 9/11 happened which took my teen years in a very different direction which I wouldn’t want to have records of nor did I record through the lens of my camera at the time. In some ways this idea of recording or re-recording my familial space is a way of making up for almost 10 years of non-making.

The constructed visual family world - This idea that the ‘family’ you see in the photographs on the wall and on the mantle piece are the family that everyone aspires to be. I have realised through this investigation that I don’t appear in a classical family photograph as do my mum and auntie when they were young. The photo I am thinking of in particular is the family photograph I found on the wall of my grandfathers study. It shows him and Sue my grandmother and then Sarah my Auntie and my mum. Whilst having conversations about the photographs with my mum I learnt that her and my sister really didn’t get along at that time yet in the image they looked like the best of friends. This shows that the image we see is in someways a facade for the perfect family look.

Sahika Erkonan posits that Photography reshapes the family? - Does it? How? This is something I am going to think about further int he coming weeks.

The cabinet of Curiosities it was later called is in fact my starting point fo this investigation 2 years ago.

Is this act of photographing in fact to preserve the already preserved? My grandmother placed and arranged these items under the glass cabinet lid as a personal exhibition. Each item being placed and arranged and then moved and rearranged over time. But what am I adding to this ‘exhibition’?

Is Photography a silent medium?

The photographs aid communication, so to answer the above question, Photography maybe a silent medium in its mechanical process, however the aftermath of photography is communication, Dialogue, Opinion and debate.

Two further ideas to think about…

Stories of a shared past (Anette Khun, 1999) -

Reworking the narrative in my own visual language?